Sunday, 21 December 2008

mindful...


okay, understanding is important.. but i realise questions are just as essential. in life if you know why you are going through something it helps you go through, its like a clearer picture. if we go back to those inquisitive years where we asked so many questions to understand 'why that lady is crying' (its a random example) to understand the world and what we are going through.. getting used to these sensations we could not explain before. i really wanted to go to school at that age because i couldn't explain how i felt. so these questions are fired to the two most knowing people we know because they have been there for our forever(the several years we were on the earth). so depending on the response of your parents, or if you have both or even if you have any at all it affects the way you see the world and ourselves.


we consume information... could you imagine a world where there is not information at all? even our body is built around information from the way our heart beats to the way we grow. the occurrence of any illness is because of the breaking of information from one part to another, that is why it is called a disorder (deviation from correct order). thus the cessation of that information being transmitted results in system shut down also known as death. we need to know and its built in the fabric of our flesh. so we get what we can from somewhere and that explains why if a human being lacks certain healthy relationships, they will still be a human mass of information. i am talking beyond sensory understanding however, 'life skills' basically but it is imperative to recognise the source of acquired knowledge.

yesterday i was putting Cd's in cases about 20 of them and i suggested this conveyer-belt like system and it was not the first time i did that. OK most may think its human nature to increase productivity and efficiency but where did i learn that? it was something that troubled because it made me realise how so much in our thought processes that gets lodged and we do not know where it comes from. it was the equivalent of a virus on my PC, it may not be detrimental, could even be beneficial but WHERE DID IT COME FROM!
it is imperative one takes stock of what is in their personality and has some kind of virus protection because one could lose control of the decisions they make. a decision, in the dictionary, means to make up one's mind and since we said we are an amalgamation of information received can we FULLY trust our minds? i was watching current TV and there was this man was a proclaimed graffiti artist who used stencils of flowers and strong soap to make an image that is really the clean surface surrounded by the dirty wall (pretty cool) but i could not get over the stencil!! as one in the art side of things, it definitely would not be impressive if you used a stencil (unless it is fabric art) so i could not refer to him as a graffiti artist. my brother reminded me the question of what is graffiti, first thing that came to mind were the witty spray paintings on unwanted places and the beautiful murals for honor... that however is not the only type of graffiti. that taught me that my mind is finite and i cannot always make the right decisions.

biblically it made sense to me why the knowledge of right and wrong was in the form of a tree. [but firstly i really want to ask Adam and Eve if the fruit tasted good anyway (",)] it represented how we are consumers.. how it was wrong for us to bring this knowledge into the fibre of our being. first of all knowing what is right AND wrong! it stems from the, 'RULES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN' ideology... and just the poisonous thought of 'i know it all'... we all know what that does to a person.

it requires more to make up one's mind so now I'm taking time to know what's up there in that head of mine...one should go through that detox, it may be fun!!!!

Saturday, 20 December 2008

God is good..

God has been good to me..
He fashioned me in my mother's womb to have the temperement i cannot depart from...
and He fashioned my life in a way that i realise He cannot depart from me...

my life has been a journey that i would love to tell over a cup of hot chocolate because it has been quite a ride. i must admit i do not love every moment of it but i now every moment was so that i could love so much better. i turned out to be the way i am (not much but enough to happy of who i am). its funny how when you have the least you realise what you really have and what stays is precious. or when you have alot of something and it drives you to a hault... and you being overwhelmed, explode (not literally) or breakdown... SIMPLICITY IS THE KEY!

but anyway, thats what happened to me and now im simply becoming simple again...